LOVE; IS IT REALLY?

 

So I started dating my first boyfriend after I graduated from secondary school and for two years, everything was fine and smooth. He treated me like a princess, he cares so much for me that I never wished for him to leave whenever he was by my side. He never wantede to feel any pain not to talk of crying. 

But suddenly out of the blue, he asked to break up. I thought it wasa  joke but he seemed serious about it. I asked him why but didn't really get an answer, he just left. 

I couldn't stand the chance of letting someone else take over my heart, more so, I cant just give up on my love so easily, so I waited for him and hoped he would come back toe someday, I hoped and prayed that he would come back, but during that process. I found out that he is already dating someone else. Someone I know. Then I found out that he was already dating the person even when we were together. 

But I love him, I can't just let him go like that, I can't back down now. I still stayed single and waiting for him to come back. 

Close to a year, he didn't come back, until some months back ,Nov 2020 to be exact. 

I received a message on WhatsApp and lo and behold, it's my long awaited boyfriend. We talked things through, he apologized and because of the love I have for him, we settled and thing were back to normal again. I was happy. 

November passed, December passed and everything seemed fine just like when we started, he treats me nice, he pampered me so much that I wished I was a baby again. 

We were just discussing oneday and we talked about me still being a virgin. He asked if I was, and I said yes. He was really happy, he even became more responsible after that day, some weeks later he started talking about me not being a kid anymore, all the "you're not a small girl talks" Seriously I feel for it and I couldn't resist when he asked me for sex. 

After the sex, I regretted everything immediately, and promised myself not to have sex with him again. 

But during time he was now staying at Abeokuta, he randomly shows up in Lagos and just calls me that he's around, whenever he calls, I leave everything I'm doing at the moment just to see him, I was always excited to see him come around. 

Every weekends, he comes around and everytime he does he demands for sex which I always deny, he tries everything he could but I won't allow him. It happened for a long time and everytime he gets angry, I apologize and he says it's fine. 

Until one weekend when he asked "do you want to see me? Before coming. I was surprised. He doesn't even tell me before coming, why suddenly asking if I want to see him now.  I said Yes, of course I want to see him. I'm alwayse excited to see him. 

Then he came to Lagos and I went to him. That week, I was on my period and he still demanded for sex, I said no and he didn't say anything. 

Since he was a computer programmer, he always teach me some things everytime I'm at his place. 

So this weekend when he came around, I went to his place and saw two of his friends there. It's so unusual to meet anyone at his place. So I went to the other room to stay since I couldn't stay with his friends. He came to me and I showed him my laptop. Since he gave me an assignment the previous week, he was pleased to see that I did a good job he then made a move again which I immediately declined but then he asked " Do you really want this relationship? He said that and left to the parlour to play games with his friends. 

I spent roughly six hours alone in the room until I called him that I wanted to leave for my house, he said "why do you want to leave? I told him I need to go and he should escort me. 

He didn't say anything during the escort. 

For good three days, he didn't call. 

I tried calling him and he won't pick up. 

There was even a time I saw his post of 5mins ago on WhatsApp and I called him three different times which he didn't pick. He watched him until he posted a status again and called him immediately, still he's not picking up. 

Since April, I haven't received a call from him and he's not picking mine. 

But I still hope he'll come back someday.